Designer: manikka
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"my paradise"

i've been getting to know myself these past few months.

i realise sometimes you have to depend on your very self for the things you want most.

i found out that i'll always be close to divya<3 no matter what happens cause she doesn't judge me by the way i am/act.

i guess that fairytale ending will never happen.


sick.
i'm sick of fighting with farhanah. i mean, afterall she has been my bestfriend before. it's those kind of cases where you don't want to be her friend but you don't want her to be always so angry with you for no apparent reasons. savvy?

i'm just tired of her acting so fake.
for all the wrong reasons.



tired.
i'm tired of being called fat. even by those who i consider close to my heart. it's annoying and degrading. it's bad enough that my self-esteem is super fucking low. you just HAVE to make it worst by saying shits about me that make YOU feel better. for that, you're a coward. you're a FUCKING FUCKING coward.

shitface.


sick and tired.
i'm sick and tired for being there for friends. almost every single time. and yet when they're free from their misery, they turn their back on me. you remind me of hana. you really do. it's like when people break you down, throw you shits, etc.. i shelter you from all that. but when those sources turn to face me, you join their side. y'know what? you're really no different from hana. heh.

shocked?


ouh speaking of hana.
she smsed me the other day.
"have you been contacting my bf?"
rofl.

bitch, i haven't.
shouldn't you check with him next time?
besides.
i ain't got the energy or time to spend on your player boyfie. lol.
check on other girls yea? ;D


on a brighter note:

had an excellent birthday.
babyboy gave me a white adidas watch which i wear every single day. :D
and the girls got me various stuff:
haiza got me a cap.
maisurah got me a top.
both from esprit. huhu.
hidayah got me a top online.
the presents are fab i tell ya. ;D

on the other hand, breaking dawn from stephenie meyer's twilight series is going to be released on 2nd august! ahh! i so want it. so so want it.

ouh wells.

toodles!