Saturday, January 12, 2008
"life for rent"
i haven't ever really found a place that i call home
i never stick around quite long enough to make it
i apologies that once again i'm not in love
but it's not as if i mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking
it's just a thought, only a thought
and if my life is for rent and i don't learn to buy
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truly mine
i've always thought that i would love to live by the sea
to travel the world alone and live more simply
i have no idea what's happened to that dream
cause there's really nothing left here to stop me
it's just a thought, only a thought
and if my life is for rent and i don't learn to buy
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truly mine
and if my life is for rent and i don't learn to buy
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truly mine
while my heart is a shield and i won't let it down
while i am so afraid to fail so i won't even try
well how can i say i'm alive
if my life is for rent and i don't learn to buy
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truly mine
if my life is for rent and i don't learn to buy
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truly mine
nothing i have is truly mine
nothing i have is truly mine
nothing i have is truly mine..
~ dido
you know those days when you feel as though you have everything yet you know you have nothing? it's like - you're a shell.. and everybody thinks you have a pearl inside you. but you're empty and hollow. savvy?
two weeks of school.
i seem to be coping.
sec one orientation camp was insane.
the juniors were really fun though. :D
cca open house's performance was nice.
they said it was really synchronized. :DD
a lot of tears so far.
but who cares. i don't.
during the second art class of this week something dramatic happened. i suppose many already know of it [so don't fucking act as if you don't]. thus, i will only blog about this particular conversation. :D
sharifah [me!] : divya, i lost a best friend today.
divya : sha, you didn't lose him today. you lost him a long time ago.
i guess what dee said is true.
i never expected him to say that to her.
nevertheless, tears were shed and i never want to acknowledge him as a friend ever again. haha. :D
to you - fuck you asshole. you've changed so much.. all because of one person. have you forgotten those times when we talked on the phone about our problems and how we used to advise each other? not only have you forgotten what all of us have done for you, you even shouted at me after doing a good friend wrong. to think that i had the heart to speak up for you everytime somebody said SOMETHING about you. reality often hits hard. real hard. and the reality that hit me that moment you shouted? you're an asshole, ****. i hope you get married to her. ha-ha.
a load off my chest.
and to you.
i'm sorry.
ON A BRIGHTER NOTE:
during the holidays i read three books in 3 days straight [one for each day]. i cried with the book. i breathed the book. i slept with the book. take a look. :)
twilight!
new moon!
eclipse!
i really recommend the book.
bella - me
jacob - you
edward - him
you never knew it could happen, huh?
you know you've got my ♥ ~
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