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"for the record."




i like this song.
it means a lot to me.
you know... don't you?


for some reason. i can't sleep again. i should get some sleep. i don't know why i feel so depressed. like, on-the-verge-of-self-mutilation-kind-of-depressed. and i don't even know why i'm acting this way when things are supposed to be going great for me right now.

i don't know why i cried as i read his diary yesterday afternoon.
and i cried again just now. i don't know when he'll be reading this, but yeah. i didn't want to worry you dearest. you deserve your sleep and you need sufficient rest for your work later on. you're probably dreaming of me right now. and i'm here, blogging away.


i'll be leaving for malaysia soon.
will people miss me?
i really wonder.



i need to go somewhere to scream. i need to let it all off my shoulders. will you be the person who helps me fufill all these wants+needs? i really wonder.



i don't feel like talking.
somehow, i think i just need my space.
i think i need time off. alone.
arghs dammit.


i need to force myself to sleep.
if only i didn't eat those pills last year.
i'd have some sleeping pills with me now if i hadn't.


gahs.


goodbye.