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"pms alert seh."

fuck fuck fuck.
warning: prepare for a long entry.


i feel so easily agitated right now. and i know what that means. pms. ughs. i just wish this fucking period would come. i want to get it over and done with before syf. blahhhhss!


i'm going to be dead socially.
i'm not going to talk to anybody in the next two weeks.
not going online.
[so that means no blogging. miss me!]
and no conversations on the phone.
i shall head home straight after school.
practice dance.
study, study, study.



to those guys who claim you have feelings for me:
[in no order whatsoever]

******
the thing i feared the most about us getting together is coming true. i'm losing our three-some friendship. i know how she feels like right now. i don't blame her. i don't blame you either. i think the best thing for you to do right now is to just forget me. period.

******
i'm sorry that you had to see what happened yesterday. i didn't mean to hurt you. i never meant to hurt you. never. i waited yesterday night. waited so long. afiq told me you'd try. i guess you didn't try hard enough, huh. cause you yourself told me that if we tried with all our might, we'd be able to do it. haiz.

******
i know it's new and stuff. let it lay low. thanks.

*****
i think you know why i can't accept you now. i have enough to think about. hahah. yeah, that's my main excuse, huh? sheesh la sharifah. but seriously. i really can't handle the pressure right now. leave me alone for awhile? please? pssst. thanks for the letters. huhu.

*******
hello there. i still can't believe you asked. ouh wells. you know the answer, right? i find it impossible to have a relationship with a fellow classmate. i wouldn't be able to concentrate at all. look at last year. hahs. chill. =)

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we can never be together. you know it yourself. look at how you've been treating me these past few days. it's impossible. even if my whole heart has been with you these past few days. let's face the facts, shall we? take care.


okay. that's settled.



THE OATH STILL STANDS.
i'm single.
i love my mama.
yay. T_T



dammit i am tired of bearing the brunt of all your anger and disappointment! i have enough shits to face, okay!? i know the two of you are going through a million rough shits and whatever not. but hello?! I'M A FREAKING HUMAN BEING TOO. get that into your pea-sized brains, kay?! tsk tsk tsk!

i'm having PMS.
deal with it.


i need to get contact lenses today. so i shall. T_T public speaking tomorrow. anybody can help me with it? i'm like, still at the intro. hahas. lol lol lol. come on, laugh with me. hahahaaa.

ouh yes.
talked to syarif on the phone yesterday.
he is so sarcastic.
he isn't the daddy i knew anymore.
he isn't the daddy who visited me in hospital.
hahaha!
kidding la.
kentut betul. xP



ms jenny told us that it's impossible for us to get gold. it's not because we aren't capable of it. it's because of the current situation. T_T it was such a demoralising talk, can?

she said it's because our catagory has over 160 schools participating. and amongst all these schools, rgs dancers are all trained and they even have ballet certifications! i'm like, "whoa..". T_T and she said that INTERNATIONAL DANCE is a very general term. it can be classified into different catagories itself, thus, the judges may LIKE or DETEST our dance. and it's so unfair, can??


the pressure is so freaking on.
i want to cry.
but i shall stay strong.
whoooooots!


modern dance, jia you!! :DDDDDD


ouh ouh. i'm going to miss those who are going for obs seh! especially my hidayah, haiza and maisurah la! T_T take cares kay you all? muackz muackz! hoho.


goodbye!

P/S: I CAN'T SMS YOU PEOPLE ANYMORE CAUSE MY PREPAID IS FREAKING LOW, OKAY? tsk tsk. if you want to contact me and it's IMPORTANT, call my freaking number. it's not like you're the person who tops up my prepaid for me, okay? you have absolutely NO RIGHT to be angry whatsoever if i don't reply to you. sheeeeeeeesh! grrr.