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"i need to catch the fish."

ughs.

somebody, anybody.
please ban me from listening to emo songs.
block my thoughs from excessive negativity.
be there for me when i'm sad and down.
keep me busy, don't let me be free.
haiz...


adapted from the movie "10 things i hate about you".

i hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair
i hate the way you drive my car
i hate it when you stare
i hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind
i hate you so much it makes me sick
it even makes me rhyme
i hate it; i hate the way you're always right
i hate it when you lie
i hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
i hate it when you're not around
and the fact that you didn't call
but mostly i hate the way i don't hate you
not even close, not even a little bit..
not even at all.




i know i've hurt you. i didn't mean to. i know i said i'd wait for you. and i'm sorry i can't live up to it.. not now, not to you, not to anybody else. cause i know that THE ONE for me would never make me wait. never.

the nerves are building up.
i can't concentrate.


cold sweat is dripping down my face. too much energy drained out. i can't think straight anymore. for this moment, i can't even think. i refuse to think. the more i think, the more severe the headache gets. it doesn't just involve me. it involves 4 other guys. and i don't want to hurt anybody. not anymore.



falling.
falling.
decision-making.

continue to stay single, and face everything alone? or get hooked up with that somebody and finally feel loved again? gosh, gosh, gosh.

now that peepsqueak ANNOYING, CHILDISH, OLDER sister of mine is irritating me like fuck. i feel my pms alert going on so strong. ughs! crap la she. wahaha.


and yeah, upon seeing that i was smiling while chatting with this particular guy, kakak's reminding me that i'm not supposed to get attached til the end of o's. like, wtf?! yes, yes. i know i made that oath. blahs. blahs. blahs. huhu.

T_T


damn.
i want to dance.

i'll be alone at home the whole day. wheets.



and somebody who loved me said this to me:
"i didn't make you fall out of love with me only to fall in love with another."

=/




i'll make my own decisions.
i'll catch the fish.

goodbye.

p/s: i don't care. i don't care!