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"everybody else but me"

i think sap+ju has finally convinced me that they're not worth my time.

really.
=)


anyhoo..
you know how some harsh words can really hurt some sensitive people sometimes? if only everybody kept that in mind. the world would be a better place to live in. haiz.. some people.... *shakes head* i don't know when it's going to be, but someday, when you finally realise you're such a bitch to others, i hope you change. it'll be for your own good. you bloody fucking bitch. =/



friday:
divya+mardhiah's early surprise birthday party was a success. one big load off my shoulder. planning a surprise birthday party is so tiring, can? heh. glad i had fun with dd. and rifhan too. and everybody else la, can? hahaa. divya and i got drenched from swinging in the rain. i don't think they noticed, but i was crying. the rain tasted so sweet. =)

i promised dd something.
i wish it'll come true.

rifhan scolded me. i got afiq & hadi & priscilla & divya & rifhan worried. i'm really sorry dearies. i couldn't control the overwhelming emotions. i know i'm supposed to hold on. i will. i remember what YOU said: "if i were you, i wouldn't cut myself. i'd cut those who made me feel this way." heh. thus, i hope one day i'd be able to cut the person who's making me feel this way. =DD

reached home at 10.30pm.
shivering.
cold, and drenched.

i realise i love walking in the rain alone at night. cause passers-by won't really notice it if you're crying, and they won't really care. haha.

it was peaceful.
thank you, dear. =)

saturday:
i love jumalia. i love saiful. i hate fahmi and hidayat for not coming. ahaha. xD seeing that somebody really pissed me off, even more. yes, i was emotionally unstable by then. 'nuff said. i want that book.

saw a lot of people and was very high.

saw hani and macdonald's! and a whole lot of other people. =D

thank you sap! i conquered your ipod. ahahaha! xD thanks ju for the sweets and famous amos cookies! and thank you both for the time and jokes! heh. headed to town to look for ju's papa's birthday present. had a lot of fun time doing so. heh. i want that YSL perfume! hahaha.

i loved walking back home with them.
sang out loud the whole way.
depressed, again?

i want to hug somebody and cry. i don't think i can hold on any longer. sap says i should think about myself and give myself some time off. i've been thinking about others too much. maybe it's time i be a little more self-centred..? =/

i've forgotten how to please you. with your demanding wants and never ending criticism towards others. i used to go with the flow.. but now, i'm going to have a mind of my own. thankyoutheverythemuch.


she says she's pretty.
he says she's not.
she says he says she's pretty.
he says she's lying.
and he says i'm hands-down prettier.

period.
haha.

happy 15th birthday, mardhiah darling! =)

goodbye.


p/s: i'm sorry if i don't answer your phone calls, or reply to your smses. i'll be taking a lot of time off. spending time with dear. or just alone. i'm big enough to handle finances and emotions myself. [this applies to family, too.] thanks.