Designer: manikka
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"day in day out"

you know how you try to psycho yourself by saying that you're not suffering from something bad when you actually are? i think i'm doing that at the moment. i think the stress is finally getting to my head. i'm finally understanding what the real meaning of paranoid is.


as my group's leader, i often tell my dancers that we should try to relax as much as we can because even though the performance is less than a month away, dancing is all about having fun and we shouldn't be STRESSED up by dance.



but... who am i to kid?
deep down inside me the stress is piling up.
i'm sick. i have family stuff to deal with.
along with all the other issues i have to think about.
i try to remain calm and level-headed but i'm very sure that this is just to display confidence in our group.
confidence that nobody seems to have.


in this dance alone there're many unsolved issues.
unsolved issues that i have to take care of.


the organiser
the number of members
the members' attendance
the choreography
the music
the venue for practice
the time we have left
the progress of each dancer

the list goes on and on.
those are just a few of what i have to think about in this dance alone. haiz.



life is stressing me up like, tremendously.
it's not just the dance.
it's all those other factors.



nevertheless, i'll stay strong.
i'm in this all alone.
nobody else to rely on no more.




i detest the idea of having "somebody always there for you" when i know that nobody can live up to that statement for me. and by saying this i don't mean having friends there for us. instead, i'm talking about having that somebody special for us. ouh wells. maybe in the far future this perception of mine will change. maybe. xD

i know the happiest day of 2006 will be 31st december.
where all our hardwork pays off.
it's not only for the money.
it's for the experience, and the ability that we have to give others pleasure in seeing us dance professionally. =)
it's the day where we'll have fun on stage.
executing all our steps in synchronisation.
ahh.. yes. i'm looking forward to the ending of a chapter.
as well as the beginning of a new one. =))

muahaha.
yay! whee~

goodbye.