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"unlucky"

i officially declare that today was an extremely bad day.

haiz.


some people just don't understand the meaning of friendship. i've had enough of that two-faced bitch. it's tiring to keep going through this. i just want her to get out of my life forever. she doesn't deserve to be in my "friends list" anymore. wait. she never did deserve to be. ouh wells. i believe in karma and retribution. i know she'll get all the negativity she deserves, soon, if not now. :) ouh, he will too.

today.
i've disappointed myself again.
i know they're disappointed in me too.
i'm sorry.

i'm not like her. i keep promises. i should. i do. i will. i'm not a liar; i'm NOT like them. although i can't promise i won't do it again, i'll be avoiding high heights. penknives. pills. bleach. scissors. my handphone. anything that can hurt me emotionally or physically. i have to avoid them.



school would be a better place without them around.


i got pissed during p.e.
i don't blame hadi.
i was just pissed.
but really, my nose still hurts.
i've still got a headache, too.


kk. her. him.
i'll forget all of them.
i shouldn't be so disturbed by them.
or whatever evil they've done to me.
i may sound mean, but i have to be.
they'll go down fast and hard.
and i'll laugh my ass off at them. =D


conclusion?

the bad news is that, i won't be the same ever again. really, i won't.. the good news is that he's learning to accept and understand me, faster than anybody else. the EMO and SAD me. the other side of me nobody knew about. the real me. he's so sweet. =)

i feel so bad about making him wait so long just now. i made a mess, thus it was my responsibility to clean it up.

i'm going through a lot of shits now.
but i'll pull through.
i know i will.



pretty soon the scars will disappear.. those bad memories forgotten forever.. negative thoughts replaced by positive ones.. and i'll be living life with no regrets at all. =)

i'm glad.
i'm glad he's helping me along.
others are helping too.
i'm glad.

thanks, everybody. =))