"i take back my previous post."

okay. so i'm blogging.
again.
and it's due to this.


FUCK IT. :D

Friday, February 29, 2008 { }

from now on... from now on... i'll show whatever i wanna show. sae watever i wanna sae. what the hell anyway... i don't wanna talk to her bout anything other than dance/class stuff if it's like... a bloody must. this is juz btwn me n her. wish people would juz piss off n mind their own bizzack. yes afiq, i still dispise her. like i want to be surrounded by people i hate. i'll juz show if i dun like em k?... shit people who takes advantage of others. n shit it .. i haf to suffer alone. at night these things juz kip coming back to haunt and diamonds flow to an endless stream.. or yet... till no sound can be heard to no touch can be felt.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 { }

what bull ass i'm supposed to faced almost everyday. by fakers n liars. what are you trying to do? lie with a smile and through your gritted teeth, behind that face so 'clean' they may seem. it sickens me to finally understand what people haf been telling me. such dirtied souls i wish i'd never known. said people through experience i'll learn. yes i've learned. that double standards live within yourselves. you don't uncover the truth. just shoot whatever comes to your minds. i've had it really. i haf but no energy & i don't want to anyway. so i'm gonna just mix with those that give me no shit.

Friday, March 14, 2008 { }

i can't sleep.

it's wat... 2.32 in the morning and i can't bloody sleep.

HIDEOUS. i wasted wat ...15 bucks on a bloody costume- and mind u it was only e top. & it's bloody sucky. i doubt i wud ever wear it as casual wear. whoever bloody picked it i really feel like stuffing it in thier mouth.

mean. yes, i sound mean but wat the hell. it's my friggin` dough.

wat bullshit u r gonna cook up 4 choosing such a hideous outfit. it still sucks. i mean hello... ur fashion sense much be bloody horrible.

& honestly. i dunno who the hell chose it. shit it. it even looks tugged in. wat is tis a uniform or a bloody costume. god.

i dunno y e hell i am so mad till i can't sleep. damn.

& readers dun read my blog 4 entertainment. it's things i personally think & feel so... if u can't handle e heat, get out of the oven.

--hate her. hate fakers. hate jackasses... hate.hate.hate. where's all tis angst at night coming from??




YES, FARHANAH. THIS IS FROM YOUR BLOG. *GASP* WOOOOOOUH.

seriosuly, what the fuck is your problem with me? go ahead blog about it. i am sick of you repeating me as a subject in your blog OVER AND OVER AGAIN. what? you think i'm not trying hard enough to accept you as a best friend's girlfriend? ouh please bitch. i've tried hard, and ENOUGH. your pathetic little 'act-cute-innocent-face' is enough to make me smack you every single time i see it.

you act as though i'm the single cause for your isolation. but think again. what? **** cried because of another issue the other day? have you asked her yourself? ouh, like she would tell you what she truely thinks. look bitch, we have compassion and heart. don't blame us for hating you because of your obnoxious character. i wouldn't want to be called fat and short but somebody who can't even hold a candle to me.

so you think that MY friends are deserting you because i asked them to. ouh, really? they have brains. they have eyes. they have hearts. they have feelings. THEY KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. i don't have to say anything and they would have understood EVERYTHING. i mean seriously, the modern dancers are not under my control. neither are any of my other friends. you just don't realise that you're the pathetic one who can't realise why we shun you.

don't blame mindy and me for purchasing your costume. because honestly, THERE WEREN'T ANY OTHER OF OUR KIND LEFT. kau mati2 nak fikir aku nak pilih bende buruk untuk kau kn? EH PLEASE LA EH. i have heart, unlike you. i refuse to be a bitch like you. shove it in my mouth you say? please. you don't even have the guts to look me in the eye.

so what if you had a sad childhood? so what if you care about animals more than people? [probably only because they treat you better.] so what if you think that you lead the most pathetic life on earth?

LOOK AROUND, ASSHOLE.

there are others out there suffering more than you and they don't even complain.


it's about time you realise that the people around you care about you and not everybody is like YOU. we care. we're concerned. it's not our fault you shut us out. it's not our fault that we shut you out after you accuse us of things we've never done. i'm just tired of having to give in to you for every single thing. i'm tired of you acting as if you're the BEST in everything when you know you're not. i'm tired of you USING people for your own selfish benefits.

haven't it occurred to you that people are rejecting you and not the other way round?
seriously.
you need some long thinking, bitch.

sorry afiq.
this was long overdue.

goodbye.